I just Want My Friend

I don't start the conversations anymore,
the words I want to sing or scream,
or even just say,
fall from my lips into the void,
that exists between us and,
I want to ask all the questions,
and I want to know if she's enjoying...
her new relationship.
I want her to talk to me,
as if I'm a person and not some reject,
that she decided to throw out because,
she's done playing with me.
I want to ask her to read my poems,
because no one else will,
and I used to be comfortable around her,
used to.
I want to be able to laugh with her,
and not feel guilty,
because I'm dying inside and why am I laughing?
I just want her to say hello first,
to let me bring up something,
or say something,
or even just sit next to her for five minutes,
without her insulting my very existence.
Not with words though,
she never uses words.
She uses glares and half meant shrugs,
she uses ignorance and she pretends she doesn't know me,
nearly as well as she does,
and she refuses to talk to me about topics,
that we used to converse on all the time,
and all I want is my friend back,
because I'm dying and I just want...
my friend.
I just want my friend.