Love

I want to be loved,
    by someone who wants to touch me and
    talk to me constantly
    who understands me and
    sees me, not just my faults or my
    prides.
I want to be understood by someone,
    who understands zerself and
    sees me rather than just hears
    or feels or tastes.
I want someone who I can live without,
    no more than I can live with
    because they drive me crazy but
    still I love them and want them
 to never leave.
I want someone to love me so much,
    I love myself because….
 I can’t love myself any more than
   I love the tornado that tore apart my house,
   on an evening of warm, musty air.
I want to feel amazing because someone,
    called me amazing and I…
   
    believe them.

    I believe them because I know they
    would never lie to me or
     trick me,
    because they respect me
    and trust me with their thoughts
    with their ideas
    with their emotions because
    no one should bottle up what they feel
    and they trust me that while

    yes,

    I make mistakes and I can
    be so idiotic as to drive them insane
 I will stop and listen,
    listen and not just hear,
    and I will do everything I can do to understand.
I want to give someone everything,
    give someone everything I am
    every tear and smile
    every half-choked laugh and
    shy moment where I can’t say anything,
    every mistake or bad idea
    and I want them to laugh.
To laugh and enjoy my stories my,
    half-cocked personality that’s
    ready to blow half the time and
    in which I store all my heartbreak
    and wild moments.
I want to love and be loved in return,
    and I want it to hurt like the knife
    across my mind and skin but
    to feel so amazing that it picks me
    up and I smile a real smile.
Not faked or odd or….
   off at all the wrong angles.
I want a best friend,
and I want to love them.
    as much as they love me.
I don’t want compatibility,
    or the perfect love story.
I want raw emotion and,
    seething waves of doubt and
    peril as we face storm
    after storm together and I want
    to trust someone who trusts me and
   have no doubts of them. Ever.
   Never them.
Fairy tale endings are something I’d
    love to discuss but in the end I want
    Love.
    Real and unfettered
    painful and amazing

I want love that loves me.